Break

A New Direction

My weight loss has steered off course and I need to get back on track. I have to talk to the doctor on Tuesday about my constant fatigue because I swear I got close to 8 hours last night and still feel incredibly tired. Today will be a long day at work and I am looking forward to it. My drive has been shaky lately but after yesterday I am more motivated than ever. I have to get a routine of things down otherwise I'll be a mess constantly. I need to take time to really evaluate where I am going with my weight loss and what my plan truly is.

Weigh-In Wednesday

 

Weighing In

Height: 5'1 1/2 

SW: 217 

Last Week: 213

This Week: 212.6

Change: -0.4 

Total Loss: 4.4

So far things feel like they aren't getting the results but then maybe I am not trying hard enough. It's time to get super serious and strict. Today is my cheat day so I am indulging in Biscuits and Gravy this morning. I am hoping with my new job it help motivate me to stay strong and be healthy! 

Ultimate Test

Tomorrow is the ultimate test for me because I am starting a new job. at my job I will access to all those monster calories and in the past I have given into them but not this time. I have been counting my calories and doing my exercises. I am extremely proud of myself and excited for this fresh start for my family. :)

If Food Could Talk

A New Me

Yesterday was atrocious. I actually looked up the calories for the pizza we ate and was shocked. I ate 900 calories in pizza alone. I went way over my daily limit and I am pissed at myself. The internet was down so I couldn't look it up before I indulged in dessert and I shouldn't have ate any dessert without knowing the pizza calories. I have been super strict about portion sizes and calories. I have been sticking to my exercises and keeping myself in line. Today was a new day so I can move on but if I want pizza I will do store bought from now on.

I know this may seem petty but it seems like a waste of calories because at 300 calories a slice, it's disgusting. I am completely committed to my journey and as proof not once have I relied on my MIL this time. She is on her own journey and I fully support her but this time my journey is for ME and me alone. No one can get rid of these pounds but me and my husband is extremely proud of me for sticking to it. I can't tell if the B12 is helping or not but I am going to continue to take it.

I have rid myself of the emotional baggage and I hope with walking around work on my breaks and lunch that it will also help me to lose weight. I plan to stick to my water and take a journal to work with me so I can keeptrack of my calories while I am at work. I am making this a zero tolerance policy because I am tired of the disgusting woman I see in the mirror every day. I want to see the strong me that I know is there just needs to be yanked off her ass and back into gear.

Pushing

I gave in to a treat today then did something I've never done before. I actually took time to look up the calories in my treat. I knew it was a lot of calories but it helps me to remember that I have to work out extra tonight and watch what I have for dinner so I don't go over. I have done exceptional with staying under 1500 calories. I am working really hard because I want to show myself and my husband the wife he has been missing for too long. The more I look at myself the more I see where my husband is ashamed of me and I have been looking at myself through rose colored glasses. It's time to stop that and get my ass in gear. I need to work hard and stop giving excuses. I let myself go and only I can get my ass back on track.