Pushing

I gave in to a treat today then did something I've never done before. I actually took time to look up the calories in my treat. I knew it was a lot of calories but it helps me to remember that I have to work out extra tonight and watch what I have for dinner so I don't go over. I have done exceptional with staying under 1500 calories. I am working really hard because I want to show myself and my husband the wife he has been missing for too long. The more I look at myself the more I see where my husband is ashamed of me and I have been looking at myself through rose colored glasses. It's time to stop that and get my ass in gear. I need to work hard and stop giving excuses. I let myself go and only I can get my ass back on track.